Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you. I read this site regularly and find it a beautiful, if not sad outlet of love for your brother. When missing them is all we have left, it sucks, but it's all we got. Please know your banner waving is not going un-noticed. For many people, including me, your spirit, un-abashed loyalty and love for your brother is a source of strength. You're not alone. Your effort makes a difference. You have an impact. You have not failed.
Another brotherless sister.
Memories/ Carol Hensley (dear friends ) You were so loved by so many. With that twinkle in your eye and that flashing smile, you were every mothers son. Gary and Danny feel as if they have lost a brother, and my heart breaks every time I realize that you will never come through my front door with Gary to sample whatever I'm cooking. So many little things remind me of the loss we all feel. We just miss you, Chris. Take care of Angela, she's lost without you. I hope you can feel the love. It is the one constant we take with us through eternity. "Mom"
I'm glad the last words to each other were I love you / Cherie Word (kindred spirit ) I miss you and I'm sorry I let the same people get to me that got to you. I am still much to connected to them but am trying very hard to break the ties. I want you to know all your friends still call me Mama, not sugar mama, but mama. I don't think I'd like it if they did. That was yours. Jules misses you. Remembers baseball in the front yard, Marble Slab and the fountain at Lincoln Square. I hurt for you family. I need to call them, I guess I am afraid I'll just cry more and I have done that already. Felix, I miss you so. Grover. AKA SUGAR MAMA
Why in the.......... / Angela (Sister)
I just can not seem to keep busy enough. I try and keep my hands and mind as busy as possible in hopes it will help me deal with this. HAHA It is not working bubba. I try and think of all the happy times and it just makes me miss you even more. Seems like yesterday and it has been 7 months! I love you Chris be good............
I always knew you'd be there / Gary Hensley (good friend ) I've known Chris for a long time and his death was such a shock that I am still dealing with it. Chris and I were very close. When I needed a laugh or my spirits lifted, I could always count on him. Chris was close to my family for many years. He called my mom "Mom" and was always welcomed with open arms. He didn't always agree with my choices, but I always knew he'd be there. I still want to just pick up the phone and call him to meet me at the bar for a cold one, then listen to him spin some records. When you hung out with Chris, you got the feeling everything was going to be alright. Chris carried alot of burdens, as well as his own and I respect him for what he did in this world. I consider myself lucky to be able to say we were friends. Chris, you will be forever in our hearts and prayers. I love you, Bro. Gary
condolences/ Hannah Gisby (none)
You do not know me but i lost my best freind Danielle Bailey,12, on 23rd July 2005 to suicide. She was being bullied for having ginger hair and being a bit chubby. Me and my freinds are finding really hard and reading through your website it has made it a bit easier to think about the good times. you, your familly and freinds are in my prayers.
In Christian Love / Beverl Ahlstedt Mark and Melanie, Through a series of events, I ended up on Chris' memorial website yesterday. Although, of course, I never knew Chris, it was obvious that he had a warm and infectious personality that blessed the many people that were privileged to know him as son, brother, father, and friend. It was an honor to look at this beautiful site and to see the many pictures that so clearly reflect the love and memories that the both of you created for your family. Although I have not seen either of you in many years, I remember you both as sweet and kind people who loved the Lord with all of your heart. I would never pretend to think that I have the right words to encourage you during these difficult days, but I wanted to let you know that we prayed for you and your family today. While I know that no one else can understand the depth of your pain and sadness. I hope that it helps is some small measure to know that people are asking that the God of all comfort embrace you with HIs big, strong, and compassionate arms. Ricky and I are so sorry for your loss.
Ricky and Beverly (Harpold) Ahlstedt
Missing you a bunch today.... / Mark (Dad) Chris, I miss you so much. My heart feels as if it is being crushed. I look back at the pictures and recall what a wonderful blessing you were to me and your mom. I remember how proud I was when you took your first steps, said daddy the first time, caught your first fish, and so many other memorable firsts. I remember running down the bleachers screaming for you to run faster as you were out running everyone around the right end for your first touch down.Man was I proud of you. I was so proud to see how polite you were and to hear people tell me how sweet you were. You never quit giving me reason to be proud of you as you grew up and developed such a kind and loving personality. You were all a dad could hope for in a son.
I wish I could get another hug and hear you say I love you dad.
condolences/ Deanna Nigro (none) You do not know me but I lost my husband Joseph Nigro Febuary 1st 2005 from suicide.He was Bipolar and suffered from addiction and demons of his own.We have a little 3 year old.I know how tuff the struggle to survive the suicide really is.You are never the same person no matter what the relationship is.My heart goes out to your family and his beautiful daughter.It is really difficult for them to understand the death of a parent.My son Joey has had a battle with the loss of his Daddy.71/2 months later he is doing 100% better.Does he miss him absolutely but, he knows he can't come back.He is blessed to be loved by so many.I can tell christophers daughter is also loved very much.I believe that helps them to get through.Also,for all of us morning a suicide death,we all need to love and support one another.Suicide brings blame(natural)but the real thing is they were sick and made that decision,and there is noone to blame.And sometimes that is the hardest to have noone to blame.We get mad at God(understandably).And that is okay.Sometimes God has a plan we don't understand.My prayers are with you and your family.It is a tough road for all of us that are survivors.God bless all who to mourn Chistopher's loss.Everyone stick together and support one another that is all we have left.
Today was your kinda day. / Angela Bishop (sister)
Hey Bubba, How are you today? I hope you are doing really well! It was very hot out today the kind of day you would have loved. So bright and hot and sunny. A good day to drink beer and chill out at the beach or lake if I have ever seen one. I love you. I wish you were here but alas..... I am going to sponsor your website permanently so Trinity can see it when she gets older. I can not keep a diary for her, it is just too hard. So I want Trinity to have this. Maybe when she gets older she can read this and kinda know you and who you are. You are a good person Chris a lot of people think the same thing as I do. So maybe sharing in my love for you now and always she will be able to feel your love even more. She is SO young my biggest fear is she will not remember you. Katelyn and especially Gwen talk about you almost everyday from what I hear Trin does too. You know this really is pretty horrible man?!?! The only true blood you share is with your siblings. Your children even have only half of your blood, and you took that from us. I won't lie I think it was mean and rude for you to not even say goodbye or anything. You know I wanted to help you. What was so bad we could not fix it, hugh?
But, for the first time since Jan. 30 @ 4:19am I am understanding why. I am so so sorry but now you are at peace at least. I hope no one ever feels your pain, but these words are untrue!!! Everyone does now and I am just sorry bubba so so sorry..........I promise to not be like this all the time, today is real hard because the summer was always so freakin cool. I love you.
Chris will be missed~~ / Michael Leach (Friend) For the short time I knew Chris, he was a great guy. I really did not now the other side of Chris, it is a tragic loss to a guy with a bright future.
Sharing your pain / Brenda MacArthur
Bless your family. Addiction is a powerful enemy. My 4 girls & I lost their daddy to suicide on April 30, 2001, he was 35 years old. His struggle with alchoholism proved to be his ultimate demise. I will remember your family in our prayers.
YOUR BROTHER / ELIZABETH PASSERBY (NONE) I ALSO LOST MY BROTHER HE ALSO HAD AN ADDICTION THAT HE COULD NO LONGER BATTLE. HE WAS 23YRS WHEN HE PASSED AWAY. IT HAS BEEN 2 YRS AND IT FEELS LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY. ITS THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER BEEN THROUGH. KEEP STRONG AND NO THAT YOU CAN TAKE STRENGH IN KNOWING HE IS ALWAYS GOING TO BE WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT.
So sorry / Vicky Green (passer by ) I also lost my brother, Nicholas Green, last year. When I saw the picture of Christopher it reminded me of Nick. I think that it is so sad that they were both so young and handsome to be gone so soon. The picture you posted under Legacy is amazing. I cried because it reminded me of my brother. his site is http://nicholas-green.memory-of.com/About.aspx if you want to share your sorrow.
So sorry.. / Kathy (passerby) for your loss, I and my family know what you are going through. My Husband lost his son, (my step-son Josh) at the age of 18, this was in December of 2003. http://joshua-pelick.memory-of.com
It was a drug overdose. It so hard on all of the family members and so many questions left unanswered.
Prayers to all of you. Chris looked like an awesome guy and his daughter is beautiful. You have created an everlasting memorial for your brother.
Memories are like threads of gold, They never tarnish or grow old.
Death leaves a heartache no one can Heal...
Love leaves a memory no one can Steal.
A tragedy / Sherry Kimbler (None) I am so sorry for Chris and your family. To lose someone so close to you is a tremendous loss. He is so handsome and appeared to be very outgoing. I wish he would have talked to someone. I know you all do. I lost my 21 yr. old son, Nicholas Floriana, in a car accient on August 20, 2003, a day before his 22nd birthday. My life will never be the same without him in it. I know you all must feel the same way. Why don't more of the murders, rapists, and terroists die and leave our young people that are so full of life, alone? I have another son that I am worried about with his alcohol use and we have an appt. to go to counseling soon. I know he has not dealt with his brother's death. I know Chris is up in Heaven watching over his family and friends that love him so much. God Bless!
To My Son, Chris / Melanie Bishop (Mom) Chris, I miss you more and more every day. It hurts as bad now as it did when you left, because it's one more day without you. I ask the Lord to tell you that I love you and give you a hug from me nearly every day. I am glad you are no longer hurting, and I wish I could say it is the same for us, but someday, it will be okay. I know you are in a wonderful place and that we will join you someday. Until then, we keep loving and supporting one another and REMEMBERING YOU. I love you Son, MOM
I am so sorry / Trudy (none) I am so sorry my son hung his self 10/28/2004 like Chris my son was called bubba. You are right tough love does not work and you have to live with it for the rest of your life and wonder what you could have done. It gets a little better as time goes by but you never will stop woundering what you could have done. God bless you and good luck
I am so sorry! / Quinn I was passing by lighting a candle for a friend of mine's son. Chris's face caught my eye and I had to look. What a handsome young man! I am about Chris's age and it shocks me that there was something so great that he didnt feel like he could handle here on earth. I called all my friends and family today all around th U.S. to say they were in my thoughts and I loved them because of Chris. God bless you all and I am so sorry for your loss. Sincerest Condolences.
I know your pain... / Martin Bally (Passerby) I lost my brother January 24th 2005. He was 30. He had the same demons your brother did. Your right, you have to keep loving them and try everything in your power to help, tough love is a bunch of bull. It leaves you with regrets.
You have been going through the pain as long as I have so you know it doesnt get any easier. My mother will never be the same. All I can tell you is that he is with God, a much better place than we are are in. God bless you and your family and I will pray for your brother.
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