just a passer-by / Brittany (viewer) As I sit here and read your story, it brings tears to my eyes. I don't know you or your brother but as i read your story, i feel the pain you must be going through. I just wanted to say i'm sorry u have to go through something so tragic, Angela. I'm sending a huge hug to you from GA and hope one day things will be easier for you although it may be hard now. Don't ever give up,girl. You have one of the best guardian angels watching over up. Keep your head up. I wish I could have gotten the opportunity to meet your brother. He def. seemed real. Agian, I'm sorry. If you ever want someone to talk to, hit me up.
Hi Angela / Sandy (Friend) From miles away and years apart we are connected by death. Honey I am sending you a hug that stretches across the cuntry. Angela I love you and you are never alone. It does not matter how people want you to grieve. It is your journey...and not yours to travel alone....I am here even though you can't see me! YOU ARE NEVER ALONE.....Joe and Chris brought us together and I am so grateful for that.....XXXXOOOOO Sandy
.../ Ang (Sister)
missin my brother too / Julie Lee (none) angela, i just came across your website somehow and it has really hit home. my little brother committed suicide on jan. 29 of this year. he would be turning 30 in a few days on march 30. All my life i was a mother hen to my brother. Always trying to save him from himself. In the end i failed, and the pain is the most awful i have ever felt. He left behind a 5 year old and a 2 year old, both little girls. They cry for him everyday and it rips my heart out. I know he had no idea the pain this would cause us. My poor dad found him hanging and he will never be the same. my brother was addicted to meth and it destroyed his life. He could not see a way out. But i begged him all the time not to take his self away from me. He is the only sibling i have and the only uncle my kids have. my son is named after him. His name was kacy. And i am missing him like crazy. thanks for listening. we are also in texas. i hope i hear from you julie (sissy)
St patty's sucked.... / Ang (Sister) Last night sucked really bad I cried till 4:30am and it set in when I looked at your picture. I sure do fucking miss you Christopher I miss you a lot. I was thinking of all of our holidays together and the patty's day where you died my hair....Those days are over and I am so very sad......I MISS YOU
Happy St. Patrick's Day!!! / Barbie Schmidt (Sarah's mommy ) Many well wishes on this St. Patrick's Day. From Sarah-bear's family to yours..."Big hugs" and lots of prayer. May you have a blessed day x3`
GOD I MISS YOU / Me Again this last one....was the cake taker omg i am shattered still a year later everything i worked for and tried was wrong and not enough
Another Angel / Shirley George (Just Passing By ) My dear Angela My condolences for the loss of your dear brother. He is so handsome and shine's of love for all who loved him. I lost my son 2 yrs ago Palm sunday. My daughter lost her only child ( son 26 yrs old in 2001 ) Tears in our hearts endur forever. Absent from the body..Present with the Lord... Christopher is an angel now and he is with you always. You may not feel him or see him but he is watching over you & family always. My son wrote the memorial for his brother Michael and I believe the Lord held the pen as he wrote this. It brings me much comfort. If you would like to read this please email me. I would like to share this with you. God Bless You. I will keep you in my prayers... Shirley
Happy Love Day Bubba / Angela (Sister)
Never said goodbye.... / Diane Cassidy- Angel Mom-Katie
You never said "I'm leaving," You never said "Goodbye," You were gone before they knew it, and only God knew why. A million times they needed you, A million times they've cried, If love alone could save you, you never would have died. In life they loved you dearly, in death they love you still, In their heart's you hold a place, that no one could ever fill. It broke their heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone, for a part of them went with you, the day God called you home.
Flames upon the heated log, hidden behind the misty fog my mind recalles broken dreams, where nothing is what it seems to be. I see your face and recall your name But you disappear behind the flame I want you by my side not in the colors of my mind
In memorie of Christopher before and after your life we will all miss you
You were one of a kind / <3
I often think of you and wonder if I will ever meet anyone who is like you again. I know I will not but for the sake of arguement I hope the world was not totally robbed of your spirit. You were one of a kind my dear brother.
Angela I love you! / Sandy Romito (friend) A year is coming fast ...fort he both of us. Our brothers left this earth the same, only a day apart. I know your pain because I feel it. I know how hard this is and your not alone. You havesaved me this year from my own grief. I lost my brother and I gained a friend YOU. No one can feel the same or grieve the same. Each persons way is unique to them and them alone. No one way is right or wrong. I know how muc hyou love him. That is one thing that never does die. Angela I have no doubt in my mind where Chris is. He is in heaven, with Joe. All that pain he was struggling with is gone. Just gone. He is at peace and partying up a storm. A year has passed and I am sure that I can say for a fact NOT AN EASIER. Just the mystery of how time passes and the pain does not go away. From one sister to another. I understand the pain and the loss and I wish I could take that away from the both of us. IT has been a pleasure this past year to know and love you. God placed you in my life to help me to make it. YOur a wonderful gal and I am blessed to have you in my life. You have made Chris so proud and shown the world what it is to love UNCONDITIONAL no matter what. You and your family are in my prayers always. Sandy
How do we prepare for this? / Carol Hensley (dear friend ) How do we prepare for this dark first anniversary of your death? While I never thought of suicide as a cowardly act, I never thought about the ones left behind. I don't think, in that instant, you did either. I wasn't in your nature to breing such saddness to so many people who loved you. Maybe we are all supposed to learn some improtant lesson from this. I don't know. I try to see a higher purpose, some plan. What fI actually see is just a moment of despare. A moment of despare and a gun right there offering a way out of this desperate mood. It would have all changed in the morning, Chris. But there was no morning for you. For us, morning came that sunday in January, as cold and overcast as the news we all recieved. Angela called me at 7:00 AM. I could hardly understand her, "My brother's dead!" I couldn't quite understand. Still groggy with sleep, I heard, "Chris blew his brains out last night. Mom, he's DEAD" How do we prepare for January 30th again?
Missing you... / Ang
One year this month bubba. I am trying to decide how I feel about those words still. I think of you always and cry. I wonder who could tell me that I should be over this. Obviously some one who has no clue what it is like to love someone unconditionally. I am sure of that. I do not feel as though I have crossed some imaginary line in the time length one is suppose to grieve. If I have, then, oh well I am still sad and that is that.
THINKING OF YOU DEAR CHRIS! XXOO / Jane Einarson(Matthew's Mom) (I care )
Chris you are the brightest star in heaven!! Keep on watching over us you are an inspiration to all and a courageous soul determined to win.. God bless you...
I am longing for this to all go away... / Angela (Sister) Almost a year my sweet brother almost a year...It seems like yesterday on some mornings and some evenings when I lay awake I can not even picture that you were ever here. The mind plays sick cruel games on us all I guess. Who knows bubba, I know one thing for sure and that is I wish you were here to celebrate the new year and all.God do I have some wild memories of our younger days...I cherish them, each and every one. Mark L. and his family suffered a tragic loss this holiday week... His sister Danielle was murdered and then the man who did her killed himself. OMG bubba it is just aweful I tell ya. I know how Mark feels, thanks to you... :( What a horrible pain to endure...
I do not know if the Catholics are right or the Christians or what not but either way....If the catholics are and you are stuck in purgatory woop his ass for hurting her bubba...Women do not deserve such treatment and if they are wrong and you are in heaven where I know you are, welcome Danielle with open arms. I miss you bubba omg the pain is oh so deep and still living in my heart. I miss you so so sooooooo MUCH.....
My Heart is Crying / Pamela Woolly (Another Brotherless Sister ) I am amazed at your memorial to your brother. My brother Mike was also a victim of suicide (gun). He became an Angel February 2, 2003. Your memorial brought back so many memories and I know what it is like to lose your big brother. It still hurts so bad even almost 3 years later. I know that our brothers are here with us. Looking down on us and keeping us safe. I will see my big brother again. And if I get there before you, I'll make sure to tell Chris hello for you.
Hey Crisper / Melanie (Mom) Hey Crisper... Mom here! Just want you to know how very much I love you. I know you are happy now and full of peace. Heaven must be a wonderful place. How fun for you to see Mama and Memmy and your G'pa Jack! I'm still sad for us, but so happy for you, because I know you're not hurting any more.
We missed you over Thanksgiving. We had way too much food--it took us several days to eat your part. Nick said the dressing I made was the best ever. Angela, Craig and girls came from Florida. They fixed the gravestone since your cross had come loose. Thank God they noticed!
Still praying every morning for the Lord to tell you I love and miss you and to hug you for me. XXXX, OOOO, MOM
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